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the leaf flew because of the wind or because the tree didn't ask it to stay?

i read this in http://burgerwithchilisauce.blogspot.com/ and then in grace's blog.  but in her blog, it was in Bahasa Indonesia. so i translated it to English so that you can all read it. enjoy :)

The Tree, The Leaf, and The Wind

"If you want love from someone, then show your love. Love doesn't need hesitation. Just show it!"

THE TREE

The reason why people call me "Tree" is because i'm so good at drawing trees. After that, I always draw a tree at the right side as a trademark for all of my paintings. I've been in a relationship with 5 girls when I was in high school.

There was a girl that I loved so much, but I didn't have the courage to tell it to her. She doesn't have a pretty face, a sexy body, etc, she really cares about other people and she's religious, but she's just a normal girl.

I liked her, liked her a lot. I liked her innocent style and I liked her just the way she is. I liked her independence, I liked her autonomy and her cleverness. The reason that i didn't ask her out was because I felt that she was so normal and unsuitable for me. I was also afraid, about us and all these beautiful feelings would disappear. I was also afraid if the gossips would hurt you. I felt that she was my "bestfriend" and I would have had her limitless and i wouldn't have to give everything just for her.

The last reason.. made her accompanied me in my scrimmage for these last 3 years. She knew I was chasing other girls, and I have made her cry for these 3 years.

She saw me when I was kissing my second girlfriend. Her face turned red and she just smiled and said, "Just continue what you're doing." and after that, she left us. The next day, her eyes were swelling. Her eyes were red. I deliberately didn't want to think the reason why she cried, but....
I laughed with her all day. When everyone was already going home, she would be alone in the class, crying. She didn't know that I returned from football practice to retrieve something in the class, and i saw her crying for hours.

My fourth girlfriend didn't like her. Once they had a cold war, I knew it wasn't her who started it. But I was still with my girlfriend. I screamed at her and her eyes were filled with tears and she was shocked. I didn't think about her feelings and my girlfriend and me left her. The next day, she was still laughing and joking with me like nothing happened the day before. I knew that she was very sad and dissapointed but she didn't know that my heart was hurt as much as hers, I was also sad.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her to go out with me. After that date, I told her that there was something that I wanted to tell her. She told me that she had something to say to me too. I told her that I broke up with my girlfriend and she said to me that she was beginning a relationship with someone. I know who that was. 

He had been chasing her all this time. A nice, energetic, and interesting guy. I couldn't show how bad my heart was hurt. I could only smile and say congratulations to her. When I arrived home, my heart felt more pain than before and I couldn't take it anymore. It was like there was a big stone on my chest. I couldn't breath and I wanted to scream but I couldn't.

I started shedding tears and cried. I've seen her crying a lot for a guy that ignored her presence. At the graduation ceremony, I read a message on my handphone. The message was sent 10 days ago when I was sad and crying. The message said, "The Leaf flew because of the Wind or because the Tree didn't ask it to stay?"

THE LEAF

During high school, I liked collecting leaves, why? Because I felt that a leaf needed a lot of strength to leave the tree where it lived all this time.

For 3 years in high school, I was close to a guy, not as his girlfriend but as his "bestfriend". But when he had a girlfriend for the first time, I learned a feeling i never knew before - JEALOUSY. I could picture this feeling by using lemons. It was like 100 rotten lemons. They were together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my excitement. But a month later, he was already with another girl.

I liked him and I knew that he liked me too, but why didn't he say it? Since he loved me, why didn't he take the first step? When he had a new girlfriend again, my heart would always hurt. Time went on...and on, my heart was still hurt.

I started to think that this was an unrequited love, but why did he treat me nicely beside the fact that he just treated me as his friend?

Liking someone can be so irritating, I knew his favorites, his habits. But my feelings for him were never discovered. You wouldn't expect a girl to say it, right?

Besides, I wanted to stay by his side, care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping, that one day, he would come and love me. Those things like waiting for his calls. Every night, I hoped he would send me messages. I knew no matter how busy he was, he would spend some time for me. That was why I waited for him. 3 years were hard to get through and I wanted to give up.

Sometimes I thought I should still wait. The wound and the heartache, and the dilemma that accompanied me for these 3 years.

At the end of the third year, a guy was chasing me. He was my junior. Every day he would chase me tirelessly. From the rejections that I have shown him, I felt that I wanted to give him a little space in my heart.

He was like a warm and soft wind, trying to blow the leaf so that it would fly from the tree. Finally, I realized that I didn't want to give this Wind the little space in my heart. I knew this Wind would take away this shabby Leaf away to a better place. Finally, I left Tree, but Tree just smiled and didn't ask me to stay, I was so sad seeing him smiling at me.

"The Leaf flew because of the Wind or because the Tree didn't ask it to stay?"

THE WIND

Because I liked a girl named Leaf, because she was always relying on Tree, so I had to be the strong Wind.

Wind would fly the Leaf far away. When I met her for the first time, it was one month after I transferred school. I saw someone was watching us playing football. At that time, she would always sit there by herself or with her friends watching Tree. When Tree was talking to the girls, there was jealousy in her eyes. When Tree looked at Leaf, there was a smile in her eyes.

Watching her has become my habit, like a leaf that likes to watch the tree. One day, she didn't show up, I felt loss. My senior wasn't there too at that time. I went to their class and I saw my senior was watching Leaf. Tears were flowing from Leaf's eyes when Tree left. The next day, I saw Leaf at her usual place, watching Tree. I stepped across and smiled at her. I wrote a note and gave it to her. She was so shocked.

She looked at me, smiling and she took my note. The next day, she came, approached me and gave me a note. Leaf's heart was so strong and Wind couldn't blow her away, it was all because Leaf didn't want to leave Tree. I looked at her with those words and slowly she started to say to me and accept my presence and calls. I knew that the person that she loved wasn't me, but I would try so that one day she would like me.

For 4 months, I had spoken the word 'love' for about 20x to her. Every time she would switch the conversation.... but I didn't give up, I had decided to have her and hoped that she would agree to be my girlfriend.

I asked, "What are you doing? Why did you never reply?"

She said, "I looked up."

"What?" I didn't believe what I heard.

"I looked up!" She screamed.

I put my phone, got dressed and took a cab to her place, and she opened the door, and I hugged her tight.

“The Leaf flew because of the Wind or because the Tree didn't ask it to stay?“

Charice ft. Iyaz - pyramid

shawty's love is like a pyramid
we stand together till the very end
there'll never be another love for sure
iyaz and charice here we go

stones heavy like the love you've shown
solid as the ground we've known
and i just wanna carry on
we took it from the bottom up
and even in a desert storm
sturdy as a rock we hold
wishing every moment froze

now i just wanna let you know

earthquakes can't shake us

cyclones can't break us

hurricanes can't take away our love

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep on goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey

cold never ever when you're close
we will never let it fall
a story that was never told
something like a mystery
and every step we've took we grown
look how fast the time has flown
the journey to the place unknown
we're going down in history
earthquakes can't shake us
cyclones can't break us
hurricanes can't take away our love

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep it goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid

like a pyramid girl i'ma show you
that i love you so much that we're gonna get through
even when it storms i will never go
i'ma be the one to keep you safe
before was a love i care more than enough
holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough
mother nature, or disaster won't stop our happy ever after

pyramid... keep it going...
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep on goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid

pyramid..
pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep it goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey

♥

diary / blog

http://thelifeofgabrielagracia.blogspot.com/

it's in Bahasa Indonesia, because that way i can write my 'diary' more openly :)

Ryan Cabrera - photo

A photo can say a thousand things

But it can't say the million things I wanna say

A photo can capture the way we were

But it can't capture the way we are

'Cause you're far away

What it's like to know you
What it's like to touch you
Yeah

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words?
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts

'Cause I'm looking at your picture
'Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot

Timing, lost minutes and moments
Yeah, I might be lonely, girl
But I'm not afraid
In a second
It all comes right back to me
No, nothing's forgotten now
Yeah everything's saved

What it's like to touch you
What it's like to know you
Yeah

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words?
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts

'Cause I'm looking at your picture
'Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot

You were my life
You were my faith
You gave me hope every day

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words?
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts

'Cause I'm looking at your picture
'Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot

(y) ♥

Interview with GOD

...With my newly acquired title as a journalist, I decided to strike a high note.

"Come in," God said to me, "so, you would like to interview Me?"

"If You have the time," I said. He smiled through His beard and said: "My time is called eternity, and is enough to do everything; what questions do you have in mind to ask me?"

"None that are new to You. What's the one thing that surprises you most about mankind?"

He answered:

"That they get bored of being children, are in a rush to grow up, and then long to be children again. That they lose their health to make money, and then lose their money to restore their health.

That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live neither for the present nor the future.

That they live as if they will never die, and they die as if they never had ever lived.."

His hands took mine and we were silent. After a long period, I said, "May I ask you another question?" He replied with a smile.

"As a Father, what would you ask your children to do for the new year?"

"To learn that they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is to let themselves to be loved.

To learn that it takes years to build trust, and a few seconds to destroy it.

To learn that what is most valuable is not what they have in their lives, but who they have in their lives.

To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. There will be others better or worse than they are.

To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.

To learn that they should control their attitudes, otherwise their attitudes will control them.

To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in person we love, and that it takes many years to heal them.

To learn to forgive by practising forgiveness.

To learn that there are persons that love them dearly, but simply do not know how to show their feelings.

To learn that money can buy everything but happiness.

To learn that, while at times, they may be entitled to be upset, that does not give them the right to upset those around them.

To learn that great dreams do not require great wings, but a landing gear to achieve.

To learn that true friends are scarce, he/she who has found one, has found true treasure.

To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others, but that they forgive themselves.

To learn that they are masters of what they keep to themselves and slaves of what they say.

To learn that they shall reap what they plant; if they plant gossip they will harvest intrigues, if they plant love they will harvest happiness.

To learn that true happiness is not to achieve their goals but to learn to be satisfied with what they already achieved.

To learn that happiness is a decision. They decide to be happy with what they are and have, or die from envy and jealousy of what they lack.

To learn that two people can look at the same thing, and see something really different.

To learn that those who are honest with themselves without considering the consequences go far in life.

To learn that even though they may think they have nothing to give, when a friend cries with them, they find the strength to appease the pain.

To learn that by trying to hold on to love ones, they very quickly push them away; and by letting go of those they love, they will be side by side forever.

To learn that even though the word "love" has many different meanings, it loses value when it is overstated.

To learn that they can never do something extraordinary for Me to love them; I simply do.

To learn that the shortest distance they could be from Me is the distance of a prayer."


GBU :)