ehem.

Your jokes brighten my day but sometimes I wonder. If you are joking all the time, how do I know if you meant everything that you said to me? I believe you, I know that but still I’m not certain. My fears of being hurt again really makes my heart ache because you’re just like that jerk ( I already told you, right? ). The way you make me laugh by your silly acts really reminds me of that jerk. I’m starting to feel confused. You don’t even call me my special name anymore. I don’t know why but for me it felt like you’re starting to go apart from me. You once said “Without you, it’s lonely here.” Do you mean it? I don’t know. I’m already a broken porcelain doll. If I get hurt again, I think I will be a destroyed porcelain doll. I won’t force my feelings to you but please just accept it and don’t walk away. Fyi, you are the first boy that I told about my ‘problems’. Don’t you see how special you are for me? I know you don’t feel the same way that I do ( maybe? ) because now you seem hard to reach. I don’t want you to remember me because you got a new rank or a new achievement in your game, but I want you to remember me for who I am, not what I play. I just hope you realize that. I really hope you do. I’m not perfect I tell you that. I’m perfectly imperfect ( you told me that ). You’re different, boy ( different in a good way ) so please stay by my side. Make my days brighter. Please stay by my side as a friend or ( I hope ) a boyfriend but I don’t care about that. It doesn’t matter to me if you think of me as just a friend just please stay by my side. I know that I’m selfish. Just please consider this if you want to walk away from my life. I tell you right now even if you did walk away from my life, I won’t forget you. For me, as long as you are happy, I’m happy too. And that’s my opinion of love. As long as you’re happy, I’m happy :]